I'm prob going to delete this

 I have come to a conclusion!!!

I was an atheist, I consider myself an atheist. I studied science, we cannot prove the existence of God ...i mean through any measurable method

BUT recently and lately I have experienced things no human no adult and no child should see with their eyes, ears, etc

If God DIDN"T exist, ... I would be dead. 

Sometimes I'm like...why does it matter if I'm dead or alive. I think it would suck for a ton of people if I died

So...in conclusion, God exists. I mean if God didn't exist ... I would be like 3 of my friends. 

Underneath a grave stone before I even reached my mid 30's?  I don't donking think so

My conclusion is God exists...because otherwise Kristina Haney would be a carcass in the ground. Before she experienced the joy of turning 40 ? 

So...that's my conclusion. (I mean...I endorse changing your mind, and I don't like how much I fluctuate between ...God exists and ... I'm an atheist.) But it is what it is

I'll write more later, xo Kristina